Too much…

Things are changing & im feeling like I’m not able to stay strong.

  • My mother has cancer again and the guilting has started.
  • My job is changing & I’m not certain I’ll be able to meet expectations.
  • My daughters are beginning their Senior, Freshman and 5th grade years  in school & I’m unprepared for the changes.
  • My health is waivering & I feel weak &  tired.  These migraines… Ugh
  • Finances… Money is such an issue & we’ve got so much money going out & not coming in
  • I missed my appt with Dr M in May.  I don’t know what the hell happened, but it will cost $150 and I can’t get in until Aug 30.  I have no med refills, 20 pills & 30+ days to wait.  I email & get no response.

And, to make things unbelievably harder, Dr H is out this week.  It may not sound like a big deal, but I go to therapy without fail EVERY Wednesday at 4:00.  Even on holidays, I go a day earlier or later, but I don’t miss…. Unless she is out.

I know she needs time off to relax, take care of herself & family & stay healthy, but it’s so hard.  No matter how strong I might be feeling, I just seem to struggle more.  

So, here I am trying to keep it together.  It’s been a struggle & will be until next Wednesday. I’m trying to stay harm free & as a normal as I can…


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